Life is hard. Growing up is hard. Changing is really hard. To the people closest to me, I have been painfully honest regarding the status of my marriage. My emotions have been all over the place, but my heart has been steadfast.
Through all of the junk that John and I have heaped onto each other, I can feel that we do share a deep love for one another. The one thing that keeps us focused is Miranda. She deserves to have the happiest and healthiest home possible and we have committed to take the necessary steps.
Our home has a different atmosphere now. There are more smiles, hugs, and conversation. It is not perfect, and there have been moments of relapse. Sometimes we get stuck in a rut and it seems that change is impossible. But people can and do change…if the stakes are high enough. Day to day, we get up and face the difficult times with hope.
John and I are still not where we are supposed to be, but I am grateful that we are not where we were a year ago. The progress that has been made encourages us to continue fighting for happiness.